The door to yet another year has closed. Let the meaningful reflection begin!
It's been an interesting year, and my narcissism aside (this IS a personal blog, people), even a momentous year for me--if one conveniently ignores the macro perspective of everything that occurred in 2006 (um, basically the news of KFed and Britney's divorce for one) and take a micro glance at the year that little ol' me had. I mean, isn't the Time Person of the Year for 2006..me?
My life today is certainly not at all how I envisioned it at the beginning of 2006, but I say that positively. How is my life this New Year's different from last year's?
1. I'm single; 2. I'm no longer in any way, shape or form pursuing law school or any other form of certified book learn'n; and 3. I live in Brooklyn.
At the dawn of 2006, I only foresaw the possibility of one of those three changes occurring in my life and for all three to occur practically simultaneously really gives legs to the old adage, "when it rains, it pours"--without the negative insinuation.
What's been interesting to me about 2006 is that while so many changes occurred last year, I find myself living a life with a slight sense of deja vu infused with a good dose of Nietzsche's notion of eternal recurrence or eternal return. That is, my life today mirrors, in actuality and symbolically, what it was 4 years ago when I was just a fresh, bright eyed, punk inchoate college graduate embarking on my next great adventure in life. Since then, my comrades have gotten engaged, married, popped out a kid or two, advanced up the corporate ladder, purchased an apartment or house, and fixed the Hubble Telescope (okay, maybe not the Hubble thing...), while oppositely I find my life since then has not changed at all. It's almost as if the past four years were simply but a dream from which I just recently awoke from.
Nietzsche wrote in the Gay Science:
What, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: 'This life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more' ... Would you not throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse the demon who spoke thus? Or have you once experienced a tremendous moment when you would have answered him: 'You are a god and never have I heard anything more divine.' [Thanks Wikipedia!]
I would answer the latter only if given the opportunity to relive with the knowledge gained from the previous cycle of the great karmic wheel of eternal recurrence and I have a feeling that 2007 will be just that: 2003 redux with some knowledge. However, that knowledge--the insight and perspective gained the past four years--will provide a road map that will proactively allow me to wake up to a whole new day as Bill Murray was finally able to do in his classic movie...the Groundhog Day. I'm just very thankful I get to do this in New York City, the city I heart, instead of Punxsutawney.
Anyway.
Without further ado, these are my resolutions for 2007:
1. Lead a healthier lifestyle: More exercise, less junk food, and less drinking; 2. Save money better and spend less on frivolity; 3.
Lose or get resolution for my addiction to Krytonite; and lastly 4. Marry Kristin Kreuk or this girl.
And while the orchestra starts to play on this speech, I want to specifically thank a few people that really helped me out this past year: KC, CD, LS, CM, and LH.
So, here we go kids. One door closes and another one opens. Lets make it exciting. Let's make world peace finally happen. Let's make it sexy.